So Thankful

 Just writing this post has me in tears. My heart is so full of gratitude and appreciation for Mom Tobler and for her never ending love and service. When we found out we were pregnant I was a bit worried. I have never had a baby without Mom Tobler in the same city as me and I was concerned about doing this without her. Mom gladly said she would come help without any question. She never complained or let us know that we were inconvenient. She arrived and essentially took my burden of being a mother and a wife onto her shoulders. She cleaned, did laundry, hosted company, cooked, shopped, toted kids too and from school and was at the demanding call of the children all day long.

Not only did she play with the kids but they did fun activities like playing in the sand box, coloring eggs, going to the park,

 playing games, coloring, 

dancing, reading stories,

 walks, fire pits,

 building train tracks and most importantly building a relationship with my children. 

 I was so worried that I would get postpartum depression again. I had it pretty badly with Duke and I was terrified of the thought of having it with Leif. I don't like asking for help, I'm a fairly independent person and when I had Duke I wanted to do everything on my own. In my mind I had to be super Mom taking care of everything as if nothing had happened or changed or else I didn't feel that I had the right to be a mother to two children.

This time around however I knew that things had to be different, that I had to be different and that it was OKAY and a GOOD thing for me to just relax. Mom calmed me, took care of me and essentially saved me from myself. I don't think she meant to do anything special, she was just being herself, but to me it meant the world.

Thank you for all of your love and help Mom. I can't explain what it meant to me or to my family. I feel fantastic and I attribute and large part of that to you. We sure do love you and are excited to see you again in a few weeks!